We're Still Around!

Sorry for the long absence!  Here is a quick note to drop by and say hello!  We are still around and kicking!  Life has been busy for us over here due to a variety of reasons.  Winter semester for both mr.hubbins and I flew by as classes, exams, and papers kept us busy.  Just as our winter semester was winding down to an end I was put in a compromising situation with the company I was working for.  I was told I was a worthless employee and that I should have called to get permission to leave site when Jessa had an allergic reaction to one of the vaccines she was given.  Needless to say as school was ending we were forced to study, pack, and search for a place to move to.

Luckily through the grace of God and His tender mercies we were able to find a place to move to that we could call our own.  We found a place twenty minutes outside of Edmonton and are living in the Sturgeon County area.  It allowed for me to be home and focused on little miss more and it was what we all needed.  Little miss has blossomed since moving she is happy now to play by herself, explore the house on her own, and open the balcony door and wander into the backyard to play.  It was sad to finally see and understand that the company I was working for was taking a toll on our whole entire family, and I am so grateful that we could escape from such a horrible company to work for.

Summer has flown by for us as mr. hubbins has continued with his schooling and on his limited days off from work, he is engaged in a practicum that keeps him going at all hours of the day.  We will be excited for summer to be done so we can have Ya Ya back at home, as little miss so lovingly calls him.
Being close to graduating school for me has been such a blessing but also a bit of a disappointment due to the reasoning that I have to leave princess buttercup to go.  July has been a hard month for her due to the fact that I have had to take a class that has been a full three weeks long every day.  Needless to say when the weekends have come, she has been a Momma's girl, or as I have been lovingly named MiMi!

This weekend us girls headed off to the farm that is close by our house.  We played with the goats, watched the chickens and roosters, jumped at the sheep baa at us, watched a puppet show, went on a train ride, and finished the day with some fudge samples and a free ice cream cone.  It was a wonderful day and I was grateful for the quiet moments we got to enjoy the outdoors together.  I am so excited for this week to be done so I can enjoy the precious months with princess buttercup before my practicum starts in October.  This year I can't wait for it to be over so I can enjoy time being a mom again without the worries of school <3

Be still and Be brave

I cannot believe how quickly 2014 has suck up on me! Time seems to fly as you celebrate the triumphs that you child has.  Some exciting highlights of 2013 and one from 2012 were
On December 25 2013 Jessa said her first word mum
On February 14 Jessa said dad for the first time
On April 23rd Jessa said boo when we were playing peek a boo

At 11 months Jessa learned to crawl
At 19 months Jessa learned to walk unassisted

And that was our year in review from a proud mommy outlook!

2014 is a bit of a scary year for our family as both Jonathan and I return to school to finish the last year of our programs.  Is has been on of the hardest decisions I have had to make.  Going back to school means that Jessa will need to be placed in the care of another as I finish my classes.  After lots of prayer and tears shed I know that this is what I need to do to set the example for Jessa and secure a promised future that if anything happens to Jonathan or my family I can financially support them with an university degree.  Usually I use facebook as a time waster but someone had decided to use a song for their theme of the year and do after prayer and some thought I wanted to do the same.  The theme for me this year is be still by Hilary weeks.   This year I have decided to work on my spiritual relationship with Heavenly Father and one of the greatest trials I will face is learning to forgive a loved one for hurting me greatly.  Without going into details I have learned that the grudge and hardness I hold in my heart is harming my relationship and faith I have in Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father and so I must forgive; as I heard this song I realized that these are the words I feel and need to remember as I place my trust in god.

The lyrics are:
Another day
I'll try again
But can you tell me
Will the hurting ever end?

I've been taught
And I believe
But it's been awhile
Since I've been on my knees

But I need you by my side
I don't have the strength
To make it on my own
And Lord, do you hear my prayer
How soon will you answer me?

I know you're weary
I know you've had all you can bear
And now you ask of me on bended knee
I promise I'll be there

I've watched you struggle
Yet I can see how much you've grown
Child, could you feel my power in your darkest hour?
You were not alone

Be still and know that I am God
I'm by your side
Whom shall you fear
I'll give you strength my child
I am here
Be still and know that I am God
And there's no prayer
That I don't hear
Lift up your head
My child
I am here

The theme thatI have given Jessa is to be brave.  She is a big momma's girl and I know the time apart will be hard on her and so the saying I have given her is a saying that  Christopher Robin says to Winnie the Pooh when he has to go off to school. This is the song I sing often to Jessa that Christopher Robin and Pooh sing together.  Jessa has blessed my life immensely.  So my dear Jessa you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.  I love you baby girl