Be still and Be brave

I cannot believe how quickly 2014 has suck up on me! Time seems to fly as you celebrate the triumphs that you child has.  Some exciting highlights of 2013 and one from 2012 were
On December 25 2013 Jessa said her first word mum
On February 14 Jessa said dad for the first time
On April 23rd Jessa said boo when we were playing peek a boo

At 11 months Jessa learned to crawl
At 19 months Jessa learned to walk unassisted

And that was our year in review from a proud mommy outlook!

2014 is a bit of a scary year for our family as both Jonathan and I return to school to finish the last year of our programs.  Is has been on of the hardest decisions I have had to make.  Going back to school means that Jessa will need to be placed in the care of another as I finish my classes.  After lots of prayer and tears shed I know that this is what I need to do to set the example for Jessa and secure a promised future that if anything happens to Jonathan or my family I can financially support them with an university degree.  Usually I use facebook as a time waster but someone had decided to use a song for their theme of the year and do after prayer and some thought I wanted to do the same.  The theme for me this year is be still by Hilary weeks.   This year I have decided to work on my spiritual relationship with Heavenly Father and one of the greatest trials I will face is learning to forgive a loved one for hurting me greatly.  Without going into details I have learned that the grudge and hardness I hold in my heart is harming my relationship and faith I have in Jesus Christ and Heavenly Father and so I must forgive; as I heard this song I realized that these are the words I feel and need to remember as I place my trust in god.

The lyrics are:
Another day
I'll try again
But can you tell me
Will the hurting ever end?

I've been taught
And I believe
But it's been awhile
Since I've been on my knees

But I need you by my side
I don't have the strength
To make it on my own
And Lord, do you hear my prayer
How soon will you answer me?

I know you're weary
I know you've had all you can bear
And now you ask of me on bended knee
I promise I'll be there

I've watched you struggle
Yet I can see how much you've grown
Child, could you feel my power in your darkest hour?
You were not alone

Be still and know that I am God
I'm by your side
Whom shall you fear
I'll give you strength my child
I am here
Be still and know that I am God
And there's no prayer
That I don't hear
Lift up your head
My child
I am here

The theme thatI have given Jessa is to be brave.  She is a big momma's girl and I know the time apart will be hard on her and so the saying I have given her is a saying that  Christopher Robin says to Winnie the Pooh when he has to go off to school. This is the song I sing often to Jessa that Christopher Robin and Pooh sing together.  Jessa has blessed my life immensely.  So my dear Jessa you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.  I love you baby girl