Lately my prayers have consisted of praying for joy, finding joy in the journey. Praying for the abilities needed to get through the days and be better and no longer trying to pray the trial away. I know that Heavenly Father carries a lot of the burdens on my back that I do not feel them although they are there. But I am learning that happiness comes from discovering who you are and what you truly want to become. Being a mother is smy number one goal and it is a joy beyond words. Although, I constantly get comments wherever I seem to go of, "MY! you must be busy!" or "you have your hands full!" I realize just how truly full my heart is because of the business of my life.
The girls constantly leave me giggling about just how funny life is through a child's eyes. As I was putting Adaya down for a nap today I could hear Jessa busy yelling about something. Instead of getting mad about it I waited until I had gotten Adaya asleep and went to check to see what she was doing! Jessa had gotten herself stuck behind the bassinet and couldn't figure out how to get herself out. She was busy yelling "yelp for help! yelp for help!" and when I saw her she said to me "I am stuck, my baby fell behind and I was trying to get her..." When I asked her what she was saying when I was with Adaya she said "yelp for help! yelp for help! Paw Patrol will come!!" Oh how her sense of humor makes my heart sing!
Adaya was so funny today as she was sitting at the table for dinner. I had used frozen fruit to make a fruit salad and it hadn't melted all the way through so it was a bit frozen still. Adaya would pick up a piece of fruit and drop it back in the bowl, clench her fists and say "brrrrrr brrrrrrr!" Repeating it over and over and over again. When I laughed when she did it her eyes twinkled with amusement! It's nice to start to find the daily smiles in life rather than focusing on how hard life can be!
Annalina is such a sense of amusement for all of us. Today I finally found the top half of the bouncy chair where the toy bar is. While the girls were tickled pink that they got to show Annalina how to use her new toy and spent a half an hour pulling her music toy to sing for her. Adaya would run off and play pull the leaf for her and lay on top of her to give her a kiss! Jessa decided to spin the toy strings and watch them spin. And annalina watched in utter maement at life around her. She is such a joy for all of us and we are happy to have her in our home!
Monday, August 8, 2016
Sunday, August 7, 2016
Sunday Happenin's
I can't believe how quickly this summer is flying by! I so greatly wish that I could freeze time so that my babies would stay little and I could always have them home. I truly try to relish in the joy of being around them and feeling their joy and love constantly. I am beyond amazed at the love I feel for these little girls despite how uch they try my patience and make choices that make you just want to smack your head and question why.
Today Adaya had her first ever full blown temper tantrum. I think it was finally the release of having baby Annalina home and not having mom's full attention at nap time and bed time anymore. She screamed with clenched fists and cried for quite a while and tried to hit the baby a couple of times. I could tell it was a cry for mom. It was a time where she just needed to be held without another baby to compete with. I nursed her and she finally settled herself and afterwards was back to her happy go lucky goofy self. I was so grateful that lately I judt try to pray through the trial. Instead of praying for the trial to end I pray for whatever I need. Today I needed understanding. It came to me quickly from Heavenly Father why Dayday was so upset. My heart is full of sadness that some days I can't give them all that they need all the time. I love my girls so much and don't them to ever feel like they are replaced or another sibling takes precedence over them. I hurt for Adaya. So I know now that I need to take some time each day to show her that I cherish her and she means the world to me.
I have been going into nursery with her for the last month and have found just how much she loves to interact with other little girls who are simply gentle and quiet. She loves to babble to them and it is neat to see how much she is growing! She doesn't let me leave nursery but I know she will become more and more comfortable and I will be able to leave her when she feels ready. I will cherish the fact that she wants me to stay with her!
Jessa was so patient throughout it all and just waited. Waited it all out. She was amazing and I was so grateful for the immense patient it must have taken to just sit and wait and lay still and listen to the whole temper tantrum. Despite Jessa giving me a constant run for my money she amazes me each day with awe and wonder. The past couple of weeks we have visited a wading pool that is for children eight years of age and under. It is a sweet little pool where Jessa has taken to finding opportunities to become comfortable in water to teach herself to swim. A young girl allowed Jessa to borrow her innertube and Jessa used it to float as she learned to kick her legs to get from one side of the pool to the other. Another time when we were at the pool Jessa had come to the picnic table for some water. When all of a sudden a bad song came on the radio and Jessa piped up clearly to me, Mommy that is a BAD song! I told her it was a bad song and that it wasn't nice to listen to but I couldn't turn it off so we should ignore it. There was a dad sitting nearby with his daughter of about 7 and 8 and he kept looking back at us. He watched us the entire time we were at the pool and I was grateful that we had quietly set an example that while we are in the world we might not be of it. I have a sign that says I am peculiar! I don't lie. I don't steal. I don't cheat in school. I don't swear. I hope Jessa always cherished the fact that she truly is a peculiar people and that it is important to be so.
Annalina has been my bundle of sunshine. She is such a smiley happy go lucky baby and for that I am indeed grateful. Her little smiles as she lays beside me or when I latch her on to nurse. The smile that goes all the way up to her eyes and brightens her whole face just makes me feel such a great love that I was chosen to be the mom of such a precious little spirit. I love her coos and that she loves to talk. I will be excited for her to start talking with the other girls because I think she will be the one that helps the girls always stay close through being the chatterbox of the group.
I love these girls so much! Man am I grateful to be a mom!
Today Adaya had her first ever full blown temper tantrum. I think it was finally the release of having baby Annalina home and not having mom's full attention at nap time and bed time anymore. She screamed with clenched fists and cried for quite a while and tried to hit the baby a couple of times. I could tell it was a cry for mom. It was a time where she just needed to be held without another baby to compete with. I nursed her and she finally settled herself and afterwards was back to her happy go lucky goofy self. I was so grateful that lately I judt try to pray through the trial. Instead of praying for the trial to end I pray for whatever I need. Today I needed understanding. It came to me quickly from Heavenly Father why Dayday was so upset. My heart is full of sadness that some days I can't give them all that they need all the time. I love my girls so much and don't them to ever feel like they are replaced or another sibling takes precedence over them. I hurt for Adaya. So I know now that I need to take some time each day to show her that I cherish her and she means the world to me.
I have been going into nursery with her for the last month and have found just how much she loves to interact with other little girls who are simply gentle and quiet. She loves to babble to them and it is neat to see how much she is growing! She doesn't let me leave nursery but I know she will become more and more comfortable and I will be able to leave her when she feels ready. I will cherish the fact that she wants me to stay with her!
Jessa was so patient throughout it all and just waited. Waited it all out. She was amazing and I was so grateful for the immense patient it must have taken to just sit and wait and lay still and listen to the whole temper tantrum. Despite Jessa giving me a constant run for my money she amazes me each day with awe and wonder. The past couple of weeks we have visited a wading pool that is for children eight years of age and under. It is a sweet little pool where Jessa has taken to finding opportunities to become comfortable in water to teach herself to swim. A young girl allowed Jessa to borrow her innertube and Jessa used it to float as she learned to kick her legs to get from one side of the pool to the other. Another time when we were at the pool Jessa had come to the picnic table for some water. When all of a sudden a bad song came on the radio and Jessa piped up clearly to me, Mommy that is a BAD song! I told her it was a bad song and that it wasn't nice to listen to but I couldn't turn it off so we should ignore it. There was a dad sitting nearby with his daughter of about 7 and 8 and he kept looking back at us. He watched us the entire time we were at the pool and I was grateful that we had quietly set an example that while we are in the world we might not be of it. I have a sign that says I am peculiar! I don't lie. I don't steal. I don't cheat in school. I don't swear. I hope Jessa always cherished the fact that she truly is a peculiar people and that it is important to be so.
Annalina has been my bundle of sunshine. She is such a smiley happy go lucky baby and for that I am indeed grateful. Her little smiles as she lays beside me or when I latch her on to nurse. The smile that goes all the way up to her eyes and brightens her whole face just makes me feel such a great love that I was chosen to be the mom of such a precious little spirit. I love her coos and that she loves to talk. I will be excited for her to start talking with the other girls because I think she will be the one that helps the girls always stay close through being the chatterbox of the group.
I love these girls so much! Man am I grateful to be a mom!
Saturday, August 6, 2016
Work BBQ
Tonight we attended a work party for a company that J just joined. The whole family was invited to attend and it was fun to see how the girls responded to a new setting with unfamiliar but friendly faces. At first the girls stuck quite close holding each others hands and staying by my side but as they came to know the area they were happy to explore. Jessa made friends with a boy her age where they quickly took off to jumping on the trampoline, and then playing a ball throwing game, to climbing the bouncy castle mountain and jumping off and then off to repeat the same activities over and over.
Day day tried her hand at jumping on the trampoline but mostly loved being able to swing in the tire swing and have sparkle tattoos applied. She ended up coming home with three by the time we left!
It made me grateful that there are still companies that encourage family time where we can teach our children to interact with one another in a meaningful way! And I just love being a mom! I really truly cherish these times even if some days seem difficult or hard. It is truly worth it every precious moment I can bask in the joys and delights that my girls experience!!
Day day tried her hand at jumping on the trampoline but mostly loved being able to swing in the tire swing and have sparkle tattoos applied. She ended up coming home with three by the time we left!
It made me grateful that there are still companies that encourage family time where we can teach our children to interact with one another in a meaningful way! And I just love being a mom! I really truly cherish these times even if some days seem difficult or hard. It is truly worth it every precious moment I can bask in the joys and delights that my girls experience!!