Finding Joy

Lately my prayers have consisted of praying for joy, finding joy in the journey.  Praying for the abilities needed to get through the days and be better and no longer trying to pray the trial away.  I know that Heavenly Father carries a lot of the burdens on my back that I do not feel them although they are there.  But I am learning that happiness comes from discovering who you are and what you truly want to become.  Being a mother is smy number one goal and it is a joy beyond words.  Although, I constantly get comments wherever I seem to go of, "MY! you must be busy!" or "you have your hands full!"  I realize just how truly full my heart is because of the business of my life.

The girls constantly leave me giggling about just how funny life is through a child's eyes.  As I was putting Adaya down for a nap today I could hear Jessa busy yelling about something.  Instead of getting mad about it I waited until I had gotten Adaya asleep and went to check to see what she was doing!  Jessa had gotten herself stuck behind the bassinet and couldn't figure out how to get herself out.  She was busy yelling "yelp for help! yelp for help!"  and when I saw her she said to me "I am stuck, my baby fell behind and I was trying to get her..."  When I asked her what she was saying when I was with Adaya she said "yelp for help! yelp for help! Paw Patrol will come!!"  Oh how her sense of humor makes my heart sing!

Adaya was so funny today as she was sitting at the table for dinner.  I had used frozen fruit to make a fruit salad and it hadn't melted all the way through so it was a bit frozen still.  Adaya would pick up a piece of fruit and drop it back in the bowl, clench her fists and say "brrrrrr brrrrrrr!" Repeating it over and over and over again.  When I laughed when she did it her eyes twinkled with amusement!  It's nice to start to find the daily smiles in life rather than focusing on how hard life can be!

Annalina is such a sense of amusement for all of us.  Today I finally found the top half of the bouncy chair where the toy bar is.  While the girls were tickled pink that they got to show Annalina how to use her new toy and spent a half an hour pulling her music toy to sing for her.  Adaya would run off and play pull the leaf for her and lay on top of her to give her a kiss!  Jessa decided to spin the toy strings and watch them spin.  And annalina watched in utter maement at life around her.  She is such a joy for all of us and we are happy to have her in our home!