Woah... so this writting in my blog every day hasn't been going so well. Thank goodness I am only a week behind! Lol! So last week was a busy week for many reasons. Have you ever started a week just waiting for the week to be over? That was my last week. I received a letter in my courier package from work that I was required to spend 2 full 9 to 10 hour days at a work conference to help my residence go crime free. Two days away from Jessa! You had to be kidding me. I cried a lot. I prayed a lot. I begged the office to let Jonathan go in my place but they wouldn't budge. So from the day I found out about the conference until the day I went I talked with Jessa about what was going to happen. We talked about how daddy would stay with her and how I would go but come home after my course was done. I think this is one of the few times where I felt extremely grateful for my education in early learning. We were taught to ease separation anxiety by allowing the child to watch the parent leave either through the door or window. So I told J to do just that. He did and Jessa didn't cry the entire time I was gone. I was sad and cried to leave her for the two days. But as I was sitting through my course I received a confirmation that this is what I needed to do to provide a safer home for my baby.
Growing up with the many family struggles we faced I had a really bad association with police. So being trained by police really changed things... I realized in a very long time that I felt safe and an assurance that nothing bad could happen. There are bad cops out there don't get me wrong but I am grateful to live in a country where there are good men who protect our streets so we can live in safety and peace. Thursday was a lot easier for me to face the challenge of leaving Jessa. Now being back at home it made me appreciate being a stay at home mom even more. My days may not be glorious, they may seem tedious, hard with little reward, but at the end of the day as I snuggle my baby to sleep I am grateful for the choice I made to stay at home with her. I love my baby Jessa.
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I have been playing catch-up on your blog. I think it's great to get time away - it definitely does help you appreciate being a stay-at-home mom more and rejuvenates you for diving back into it wholeheartedly. I've found as much as I love being a mom, I need "me" time or else I don't appreciate it! I hope things are going well for you and your family, and I hope that your time away next semester at school will be a blessing and not a burden!
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