Monkey See Monkey Do

So things seem to be falling into place just as they should and I so happy for that.  These past couple of days I have really felt closer to J in our marriage than ever before.  Things are changing around here in a good way and I think it has come as a result for us both preparing for the baby adventure that will soon embrace our lives.  I have to admit right now that I am a self help addict.  I love self help books and am always trying to find ways to improve myself and strive to be better not because I don't like who I am but I know that I am a FARRR way from being perfect in any aspect.  The reason I say this is because I have come to have a firm testimony and understanding that we CANNOT change others... even though sometimes it would be so much easier.  We definitely have to be the change we want to see in the world.

Somewhere I came across the advice that if I want J to do something that I need to start doing it and vice versa and it's true. Actions definitely have come to speak louder than words in our home as J quietly will do something and I am like oh yeah I should be doing that too and simply follow along.  Also I know that with baby coming that our relationship is going to be strengthen in areas than it was before but lack in other areas as we both take on a new challenge and role.  So I have been consistently trying to make an effort to spend some extra quality time with J as we cuddle up together to read, watch a movie, or just spend time together talking.  It seems like this has brought us closer together and just created a special bond between us that was there but is now so much deeper.  I don't want to be one of those people who tries to act like my marriage is perfect because it is far from it because we have our disagreements and days where we get crabby but it comes down to the fact that marriages take work and time but in the end they are sooo worth all the energy and effort you put into them.  Tiny miracles and blessings happen everyday as you try yourself to be better for you, your family, and spouse.  I feel like one of the biggest roles that I will play here on this earth is being an advocate for marriage and families.  And I am grateful that the trials and struggles J and I have had... let me tell you there were times where I didn't know if we were going to make it... that have really helped me to humble myself and truly ask why the Lord has deemed marriages as so important but I know that through everything that I have gone through and endured will one day help another and that keeps me going.