A Mother's Love

“And so, my dear young women, 

with all my heart I urge you not to look to

 contemporary culture for your role models and mentors. 

Please look to your faithful mothers for a pattern to follow.”

- Elder. M. Russell Ballard

I apologize for the hiatus  from the last couple of days!  I have been meaning to write in my blog but just haven't had a lot of time to do so.  This week has been a break from school which has brought some much needed relief and my dear momma came to visit after my in-laws did, so it has been such a heart-warming and love filled week.  I really miss my mom and today when she left I am not going to lie I cried.

My mom truly is my best friend and understands me in a way that no one else ever will and I love her for that.  We have been through thick and thin together and I am grateful that I went to a private school where I had many struggles because it brought me closer to her.  We may have some typical mother daughter disagreements and fights but she is one of my rocks that I really rely on.  I am excited to be having a baby girl now because this means that hopefully I can form the same type of friendship and bond that I have with my momma.  After my mom left today I really was pondering about whether J and I made the best decision to move away from Calgary for school because of how close we were with our parents and while it really was the hardest decision we ever had to make I have realized it is best.  Just for the sheer fact that we were so close close to our families that in order to be the strongest together we needed to try to make it on our own and we have come closer together.  But I know that both of us miss our families like crazy.

The past couple of days have been really fun with having my mom here.  J and I had time to sit with her and talk with no distractions and really talk it was nice.  My mom and I went shopping a lot and had lots of fun.  J's momma had bought us a car seat but unfortunately I was not loving it so she said it was okay to take it back and get another one.  So J got his jogging stroller and with my momma's help I got my Graco Snugride I was wanting.  I love that it has metal snaps instead of the plastic and it is so cozy snug where the baby bottom is.  So I am excited to know that things are underway in the baby world and on the right track so we are more prepared than ever.  So I am grateful that we had both mommas here to help us out a lot.

My mo-mo also helped me a lot with some stress with a lady who was still causing problems in the ward and she taught me that the best way to deal with problems is through conflict resolution and not get contentious. IN her example and what she taught me led me to humbly accept that I am not perfect and I have a lot to work on in myself.  I am happy to have a mom who encourages and leads me especially when I have done everything in my power to fix the problem myself.  It seems like there is light to the end of that dark tunnel and I hope and pray it is done.  But I sure am feeling gratitude for parents a lot right now and how helpful they have been.

It is weird how quiet our apartment is now that everyone is gone now that J is at work so I don't know what else to do with myself other than go back to studying and getting back on track with the life of university.  But I feel lonely today with everyone gone.