Time

There is only one thing in life that I truly despise and that is time because I feel it is always against us.  Time slips away so fast leaving me wondering where it went and where I need to be going within the next minute or two.  Christmas and New Years was a time that flew by so fast too fast really.

On Christmas day my baby Jessa passed her 8th month mark and in ways I am so excited for her future and other times I miss the baby she once was.  Putting her to sleep last night she nursed and then turned her head away from me to fall asleep and I was happy for the huge accomplishment she has come past of not having to nurse forever to fall asleep but I am also sad knowing that each day she is becoming more and more independent and more of a me do it kinda gal.

At around seven and a half months Jessa started sitting up on her own but constantly needed reassurance with someone behind her.  We came back from Calgary and she does it now with more stability than ever before  She definitely has had her tumbles where she has bonked herself from tipping over and scared herself with tipping over and needing reassurance but I am just loving being a mom.  I can't believe how time flies by so quickly especially having a little one in your house and I am grateful that everything I have put on the backburner to cherish the moments with her.  I stopped writing in my blog, stopped doing chores so regularly, stopped trying to rush through everything and just enjoy the time with my precious little one.  And in reality I have no regrets about it.... not one at all.  As a child I remember being in my friend's house and her mom had a cross stitch up on the wall that said this...

and it taught me to cherish every moment I had with Jessa.  Create that precious bond and memories with her and I would be blessed for it.  And how it has... being a mom definitely isn't easy but it is worth it.  I am tearing up writing this because I realize now more than ever just how precious time is.  Christmas was truly a special gift for me as Jessa gave me an unexpected present that the months of not getting the proper sleep, some days looking like I rolled out of bed because little miss just needed to be held made it all worth it.  Jessa babbled the word repeatedly from Christmas day on... Ma ma ma ma.... so many of my friends children have babbled the word da da da da and I wish that mr hubbins will have his reward but it was the best gift I received with my little one saying over again ma ma ma.

So while Jessa got loved on by family that doesn't get to see her often I am hapy to be home and have her in my arms again.  To cherish the moments I can as they sneak away so quickly and my baby grows bigger and bigger.  And now I am done gushing over my baby and need to go sneak in some more snuggles.