Where in the world is Merrawyn Cristancho?!

I have to admit I was so happy that I had almost caught up to having an entry for every day this month but yesterday I fell behind.  But I am back after some thought and much needed reflection.  You probably were wondering where I had gone to because I have been bloggeraddicted lately.  I just love knowing that if I write down my feelings and thoughts that my babies can learn more about me and what I stood for and believed in before they came.  It truly does allow you to focus on the blessings that Heavenly Father has given us and the blessings become all the more evident.  And I am so much more grateful.  

It has been interesting starting school this semester and running into old classmates I had other education classes with from the last two years.  They tell me how much they admire me for being married, being pregnant and still trying to accomplish my degree.  I worried at the beginning that many people would look down on me for being pregnant and not finishing school because I looked down on myself and then I realized that it didn't matter what anyone else thought it was only Heavenly Father who mattered.  Education is so so so important to me and I value it a lot.  It has no worldly value to me of why I want it so much for I don't care if people know I have a university degree or not but it is knowing that I listened to a prophet who encouraged me in my youth to obtain an education.  I know from what I have learned that it will help me to be a better mother and encourage my children in the goals and dreams that they want to pursue.  But I have to admit in my determination to finish school I am absolutely exhausted; I am tired beyond belief and I feel like I am drowning in my complete exhaustion.  I try to keep our house clean, have my homework done, reading caught up, help J in his classes so that he can succeed to where he wants to go, and balance a calling of working with a sunbeam class who are challenging in themselves (one who is advanced in his understanding because he has so many siblings and another very determined little girl who has had no discipline to listen.)  I sometimes wonder how I make it through all of the go in my life and I feel bad when J has all this energy and I would rather just sleep the day away or lie down.  He wants to be active and I blow it off... I really need to try harder... but I am just soooo tired!

But somehow as I came across this little message it brought with a great sense of hope and peace, it doesn't matter that my little baby is still growing inside me for I know that it is only with the help of a loving Heavenly Father that I have gotten to where I am today.  How successful I have been in my marriage despite the trials, in school despite the adversity, in church callings despite the frustration, and in my faith despite my falterings.  Motherhood is definitely the best job here on this earth and I am grateful that my education in early learning and along with my elementary education has given me a greater sense of knowledge to teach my children in various ways that fits according to who they are and how we want to be as a family.

I can't wait to be a mommy!  

Baby we are preparing for you on a daily basis by striving to be closer with Heavenly Father!