Little hands, little feet, and even a little nose!

Making the decision to have a child - it's momentous. 

It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking outside your body.
Elizabeth Stone

I can't wait to have little feet and hands in my home!  At first I was in such shock that I was pregnant and it took my a while to adjust to the idea that I was going to be a mom.  No more just playing house with my husband but an actual baby was coming and I was going to be a mom.  This meant that my perspective about life is really starting to change.  When Jonathan is gone to work or school I used to sometimes appreciate the quiet because it meant that I had time just to reflect but recently it just feels lonely and makes me even more excited for baby to come.  I know this will probably change when the baby comes and the silences will be welcomes but I have come to accept that silences will be golden but having a baby in our home is just going to be exciting!  My first ultra sound is planned for the twenty third so I am excited to see my baby for the first time right before Christmas.

I remember in all my years of nannying my family, I was excited for the silences but even more grateful for the times that I got to spend with the children individually, to see their strengths and growths, and to have the opportunity to get to know them individually.  I remember the fun times we had and the hard times we had too.  I remember having to find different ways in order to deal with the stressful times, I remember that Norah Jones became a must, yoga, and even reading the comics called For Better or Worse.  I am grateful for the beautiful children I had the opportunity to raise for a couple of years.  It was nice to practice being a mom but even nicer to go home at the end of the day when they were stressful days.  I know that I won't get this break with my own kids but that are what husbands are for!